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breakup season

almost 1/3 of the couples that i know are having the same problem - breakup because of 3rd party. mostly are 2F + 1M. is the scale being put on paper correct - 1M : 4F?

hanging on the phone with them really made me so uncomfortable. i just didn't know how to response to it. i'm newly wedded and it really makes me scared - will it happen to me? those bfs are not very handsome, i'd say but still there are so many girls out there 'haunting' for them. erm... my hubby is considered okay ge wo (erm... many ppl say so lah :p). chances are higher wo... okay, okay... i'm low self-esteem : (

very the strange - some of them are depressed, sad and cry all day long; some of them are so calm, accept the fact that the partner is having an affair / affairs, some of them curse and swear; some of them wanna fight the bf back; some of them - so what??! i can look for another one. it's okay!!; some of them are waiting for the bf to decide if to choose her or the other girl.

hmm... if i were one of them, i think i'd be the calm one. cry, shed tears away, accept the fact and move on. days would be tough, undeniable. it's really hard to live alone and standing up on our own feet is really hard, when you are so used to live with him.

kylie - i know i'm not suppose to put this up but... this is my encouragement to you. you have made the correct choice - decide the best for yourself when you have the chance to. i really admire you when you told me that it's fate that put you both together and now it's fate to pull you both away. he'll be always yours, forever yours - it's fate. he won't be yours, it's fate too. no matter how much effort you put in the relationship, he still change when he wants to. you are so 'sa tuid'!!

how about those promises that he has made? those happy moments that he specially created? how about the future that he illustrated? they are all gone in blinks of eyes...


说好的幸福呢

词 : 方文山 曲 : jay 编曲 : micheal lin

你的绘画凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了

时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得

你不等了 说好的幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了 你累了 说好的幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了 我都还记得

为什么幸福时忍心离去?

the 100th time

there's a song that i've been hearing for more than 100 times lately - on radio, ipod, media player and tv. the more i hear the song, the more i wanna find out more about it - everything about it - the composer, the lyric writer, the arrangement, the singer and the background.

the more i know about the singer, the more i wanna know about her. i really admire her courage - to marry to a guy who everyone feels no good, to start a family when her career has just started, to do the things that she felt the best for herself although not supported by all the people that she knows, to give birth to a cute baby girl by risking her own life and to re-start her career all over again.

in 2008, she won the best recording artiste - this proves that the decisions that she made are the best for her!!

喜帖街
作曲: eric kwok 填词: 黄伟文 编曲 / 监制: eric kwok 演唱:谢安琪

忘掉种过的花 重新的出发 放弃理想吧
别再看尘封的喜帖 你正在要搬家
筑得起人应该接受都有日倒下
其实没有一种安稳快乐永远也不差

就似这一区 曾经称得上美满甲天下
但霎眼全街的单位 快要住满乌鸦
好景不会每日常在 天梯不可只往上爬
爱的人没有一生一世吗 大概不需要害怕

忘掉爱过的他 当初的喜帖金箔印着那位他
裱起婚纱照那道墙及一切美丽旧年华
明日同步拆下

忘掉有过的家 小餐枱沙发雪柜及两份红茶
温馨的光境不过借出到期拿回吗
等不到下一代 是吗

忘掉砌过的沙 回忆的堡垒 刹那已倒下
面对这浮起的荒土 你注定学会潇洒
阶砖不会拒绝磨蚀 窗花不可幽禁落霞
有感情就会一生一世吗 又再婉惜有用吗

忘掉爱过的他 当初的喜帖金箔印着那位他
裱起婚纱照那道墙及一切美丽旧年华
明日同步拆下

忘掉有过的家 小餐枱沙发雪柜及两份红茶
温馨的光境不过借出到期拿回吗
终须会时辰到别怕

请放下手里那锁匙好吗

i have finally fallen sick

have been feeling discomfort for a few weeks but the symptoms were too shy to show themselves out of me. they are all hidden inside me and made me feel so sick and bored.

at last, they showed and i have fallen sick, so sick. migraine, sore throat, cough, running nose and both of my legs are swollen. have consulted dr. yesterday and have been on mc for 2 days.

i spent these 2 days mostly seeing mr, chow. i was too tired to get up from bed. my whole body was like been through multiple sessions of yoga, aerobics, mountaineering and sort of, sort of extreme sports. i couldn't even open the cap of my water tumbler. i was so weak...

will be back to work tomorrow. sien... but i rather go to work than to stay at home and face the walls. i'm a typical 'jin guat dau'. hahahaha...

those were the days

i had to work today... although it was be a half day work, i was so unwilling to sacrifice my first saturday to my work. no matter how unwilling i was, i was there from 9.00am to 1.00pm.

went for a quick mani & pedi @ avenue k after work and headed to carmen's home. we tried so hard to arrange for a dinner with the telelinkers. from before cny to during cny and to almost after cny. at last we had it tonight. happily filled up our stomachs, happily getting angpows from me, happily giving out angpows and happily headed back home.

just finished bathing and started to get tired. my eyelids are dropping and yet not feeling like going to bed now. my saturday will be gone once i close my eyes. oh no... i'm being too appreciative for saturdays : x

the whole week was so sucked up and i'm darn tired!!! the more i feel the tiredness, the more i want to give up my job. the more i feel the frustration, the more i want to release in a hard way.

nothing in my mind now except beer and cigis. if i could, i'd have taken in a dozen cans of beer and blown out dozens sticks of cigis. 5% of alcohol * 12 cans ; 20mg nic * n cigis ---> the equations chase me away. thanks god for reminding me in that way. he knows i hate maths. hahaha...

what can i do now to spend my sat cum sun (it's midnight now...)? planning for future? can't even see the road down the hill. better not to think of the future now.

the only choice left - flashing back the memories... that reminds me of the 'raw' me when i was in teen age. who was i? a member of 'chung fung dui' & disobedient girl who smoked as early as 14, in love as early as 15, drank as early as 16, slept out from home as early as 17, started college later than everyone, started working earlier than everyone (i wasn't a drop out, i just studied lesser than everyone did. hahaha...). an outstanding girl who loved trying out new things - hairstyles, fashions, tattoos, body piercings. a motivated girl who was so into everything she did. a brave and strong girl who could carry everything on her shoulders.

as time goes by... i've become an obedient lady to everyone and in everything i do (thanks mum for the naggings... oops... advices. hehehe...). a healthy girl who is now free from alcohol and cigi. an ordinary married lady, working in an office from 8.30am to x.xxpm, living with the in-law, having dinners with friends once in a while, going out for movies with hubby once in a blue moon due to hectic schedules, having nothing better to do than blogging and playing computer games to spend time away. a demotivated and coward lady, scares of getting promoted at work, escapes from taking up new things and challenges, hopes to go through everyday smoothly without having to step on whatever shit the boss consistently prepares, likes only t-shirts with jeans in black, white & blue. a dependant lady, hoping that hubby will be a 365-7-24 companion and settles everything on behalf.

yes, days were so much happier when i was a disobedient girl but the lesson was too serious to learn. hallelujah, praise the lord for giving me a chance to experience it and become what i've become.

on the other han, i really hope that i could be back to 'those were the days' - to find the passionate & original me.

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看多少人
为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机
现在终于飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
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最单纯的音乐稻香

稻香 by 周杰伦