what goes around comes around

this cny will be a special one - the first year celebrating it with my in-laws and the first year getting a long cny break. never have thought to take long holidays during cny as it is always a boring festival to me. other than sitting at home, waiting for relatives and friends to come for visiting, eating, sleeping, watching tv, receiving angpows and going out for visiting, it means nothing to me. although it is quite a lot already, the real meaning behind the festival is not really there. our family reunions almost every night, although not for dinners. we seldom go back to teluk intan and so do the people who stay there, they seldom come to kl too. isn't it just like an ordinary day?

on the first day of holiday, i woke up a little later than usual. did laundering and had my breakfast and i called it a day. mum-in-law had gone out after my breakfast, came back for a while in the afternoon and went out again for cny shopping.
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dengue fever got her admitted for 3 days and she had to catch up with her last minute cny shopping and she really bought a lot!!
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bored of watching tv for hours, i tried some readings. having nothing except the daily chinese newspaper, i remembered that i actually bought myself an asia reader's digest. reading really fun!! especially when the day is superb boring. i got to know the benefits of yakult and had enjoyed every single article and laughed over every single joke.
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hm... what's next? haa... i also bought myself a taiwanese magazine, a women's magazine, some time ago. there... i read through an article about a broken hearted woman, writing her experience of sharing her husband with another woman.
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it happened somewhere back in 2001, if i'm not mistaken. This lady A worked in the same company as her husband's. they went to work and went back home together in a car, everyday. everyone was so envy them as they were financially well-to-do, matching and the best part was - they were so... loving.
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this lady B, who newly joined the company, got to know her husband, gentleman C. in a short period of time, they got along well and went out for lunch together (of course, without lady A). tried not to be over sensitive, lady A didn't question gentleman C any further. yeah... she trusted him.
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the situation got a little serious when gentleman C would rather drove out from home earlier just to go to work with lady B and guess what... lady A had to go to work by lrts. it got a little more serious when gentleman C actually stopped his sport car in front of the office building just to fetch lady B. thousand pairs of eyes were watching them and wasn't this a shame to lady A? wasn't this an announcement that they were having an affair?
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the most serious thing was this gentleman C bought lady B a trip, took all the beautiful photos that they had taken and showed them to the colleagues, elaborating how wonderful the place was and how happily they enjoyed the trip. i just can't imagine how this lady A acted like an ostrich, hid her head in the sand.
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lady A had lost her patience and tried to talk things over with gentleman C. and of course, it was a failure. couldn't let things turned worse, lady A tried making things out with lady B. and of course, it was a failure too.
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the situation just got worse when it went to the management whereby the managers did the talking to both lady B and gentleman C. their answers were so matched - this is our personal matter and there is no any reasons this should be handled by the management.
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looked like nothing and no one could stop them for being so high profile in having an affair, lady A decided to resign. on her last day of work, lady B purposely went to gentleman C's workstation, held his hands and walked out for lunch - yeah, in front of lady A. believe it or not, lady B wanted to announce her victory.
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lady A couldn't bear with her anger anymore and sms-ed lady B and wrote something stupid. she didn't realise that until she read the sms-es after that. her emotions took over her and led her to sms lady B, asked why lady B treated her like that. lady B actually replied her sms, denied that she snatched her husband away. instead, thanking lady A for not being able to look after gentleman C and let him turned to her. oh gosh... can u imagine that? words from a bitch!!
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lady A was so broken hearted but she didn't file for a divorce as she still thinks that gentleman C, eventually would be sorry with what he had done and went back to her.
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not later after that, gentleman C broke up with lady B and patched back with lady A and she accepted him back into her live. i really salute u, lady A!! for your level of tolerance, generosity, and strength and strong believe. u really believe in impossibilities, man!!
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i guess things were getting better till... gentleman C is having another affair with another woman, in the same company.
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gentleman C is still with the old company and lady D is always with the company. this lady D is actually one of those who criticised badly the last affair, pin-pointed how jerky gentleman C was, how bitchy lady B was. and now, she's the one who being criticised and pin-pointed how bitchy she could be.
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pisang really berbuah dua kali. nothing could cure this gentleman C - mou yeok ho gau.
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lady A is once again broken hearted but this round, she is smarter. she files for a divorce. again, i salute u, lady A!! for your courage to at least stand up for yourself, for your bravery!!
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at the same time, lady A got some kepohchi hot gossips about lady B from her friends who still work in the company. she had several relationships in between and just broke off and started a new relationship.
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the last relationship had made lady B helpless, when gentleman E was in a dilemma whether to stay on with her or turn to lady F. didn't know much the story behind it but just got to know that gentleman E has made up his mind, to be with lady F.
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both gentleman E and lady F have suffered a while, when everyone couldn't accept the fact that they are together. this is normal, i guess as things move a little too fast at the wrong time. everyone sided lady B and pity for her.
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and guess what... lady B actually sent lady F sms-es, something like the ones that lady A sent to her last time, asked her why she treated her like that and snatch gentleman E from her. lady B is still in a better place as lady F didn't reply her nasty sms-es as she did to lady A.
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and guess what... a bitch is still a bitch!! no matter how broken hearted she is with the relationship with gentleman E, she started a relationship with another guy some weeks after the breakup.
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personally, i don't think lady B is heart broken at all, in any ways. unless she is looking for a pengganti of gentleman E, or she can't live without a man in her life... if not, i don't think she could be into a new relationship in just a blink. oh... maybe she is broken hearted as the new guy is not as rich as gentleman E.
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i really believe in what goes around comes around. balasan, kata orang tua...
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a special song dedicated to lady B...
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hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
you know i gave you the world
you had me in the palm of your hand
so why your love went away
i just can't seem to understand
thought it was me and you babe
me and you until the end
but i guess i was wrong
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don't want to think about it
don't want to talk about it
i'm just so sick about it
can't believe it's ending this way
just so confused about it
feeling the blues about it
i just can't do without ya
tell me is this fair?
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is this the way it's really going down?
is this how we say goodbye?
should've known better when you came around
that you were gonna make me cry
it's breaking my heart to watch you run around'
cause i know that you're living a lie
that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
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what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
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now girl, i remember everything that you claimed
you said that you were moving on now
and maybe i should do the same
funny thing about that is
i was ready to give you my name
thought it was me and you, babe
and now, it's all just a shame
and i guess i was wrong
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don't want to think about it
don't want to talk about it
i'm just so sick about it
can't believe it's ending this way
just so confused about it
feeling the blues about it
i just can't do without ya
can you tell me is this fair?
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is this the way things are going down?
is this how we say goodbye?
should've known better when you came around
that you were going to make me cry
now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'cause i know that you're living a lie
that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
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what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
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what goes around comes around
what goes around comes around
you should know that
what goes around comes around
what goes around comes around
you should know that
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don't want to think about it
don't want to talk about it
i'm just so sick about it
can't believe it's ending this way
just so confused about it
feeling the blues about it
i just can't do without ya
tell me is this fair?
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is this the way things are going down?
is this how we say goodbye?
should've known better when you came around
that you were going to make me cry
now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around'
cause i know that you're living a lie
but that's okay baby
'cause in time you will find
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what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
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let me paint this picture for you, baby
you spend your nights alone
and he never comes home
and every time you call him
all you get's a busy tone
i heard you found out
that he's doing to you what you did to me
ain't that the way it goes
you cheated girl
my heart bleeds girl
so it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
just a classic case
a scenario
tale as old as time
girl you got what you deserved
and now you want somebody
to cure the lonely nights
you wish you had somebody
that could come and make it right
but girl i ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
you'll see
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i thought i told ya
i thought i told ya
i thought i told ya
i thought i told ya
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see?
should've listened to me
what goes around comes back around
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what goes around comes around by justin timberlake

argh... i've missed the new year post!!

01.01.2009 00:00:00:000 was a fantastic moment - with citrix as my matching companion, workstation as my vogue-st partner, monitor, mouse and keyboard as my honourable guests, served with the world's best cocktail - plain water, partied in the most exclusive venue - the office and spectated from far the most amazing fireworks in town - klcc. what else better could i wish for a new year celebration? i have never expected my 2009 to touch down in such a wonderful arrangement. praise the lord~ hallelujah!

dear god, with all my heart, i'm asking for forgiveness for all the sins that i've committed. i did not do as what i've promised you, when you helped me through the way all this while. i'm asking for your kindness to give me another chance to keep my promise, to be truthfully myself when i'm with you. i will once again hold the cross and bible in my hands as i am always being taught and made to believe that they are my lifetime guard and savour.

god, thank you for giving me a chance to believe in you, to accept you as my lifetime savour, to talk to you and to build a relationship with you. you are now so close to me, as if i could feel and touch you. thank you for the wonders that you have given me, impossibilities that turned into reality that you have proven to me, again and again, whenever i doubt your existence.

god, thank you for sending me the man who i so deeply in love with, who cares and loves me as much as i do. thank you for leading and guiding me through all the good and bad times all this while. thank you for still believing in me and keeping me with you, no matter how sinful i am.

god, i pray to you, with all my heart, that you will give me the greatest strength to go through all the good and bad times in 2009. this year is definitely gonna be a challenging year for me and i believe the challenges are to again and again, to prove to myself that i can do it. yes, i can do it... with you by my side.

you have changed me from a lazy person to a motivated one, from a smoker to a healthy person, from a selfish person to a considerate one, from a hot tempered person to a rational minded one. i can't change without you watching me, without your encouragement and without your love.

2009 will be a new beginning to everything and a better relationship between you and i. god, i do also pray hard for world peace and may all stay healthy, wealthy and happily.

in jesus name i pray, amen.