SLEEPY TIRED FRUSTRATED HELPLESS SHOCKED

it rained so heavily this morning. i managed to wake up on time this morning. thanks to the sleepless night. i tried waking up hubby for work but he was too lazy to wake up. let it be... it's not always raining... he is not always like this...

need not to mention about traffic - not only moving slow, it was heavy and stuck. i reached office at around 8.50am and... what a good news?! my boss hadn't reached office yet. i believe traffic in cheras was much worse than jalan kuching. almost all my colleagues from cheras were late late late, much later than me. there were some from kajang who reached in the late morning, when the fire drill exercise was about to end at 11.15am. imagine that...

the fire drill exercise was killing me. i seldom exercise in my life, i guess fire drill is the only one for me in a year. hahaha... oh... i had twice this year. the assembly point has moved from pasar rakyat to prince court, so we gotta have the exercise once more.

walking down the stairs from 16th floor isn't a joke. i'm not feeling very well lately and this exercise really added to my sickness. luckily i didn't faint, if not... i wouldn't be here writing...

going off for an early lunch, erm... brunch in pavillion. it's normal to have early lunch on a fire drill exercise. it finished at 11.30am - walk back to office building - wait for lift back to office - settle down for a while - griiinnnggg~~~ it's lunch time. might as well... have lunch earlier...

i have been staying back late in the office for the past 2 days. normally i don't make myself staying back in the beginning of the month, especially 1st of the month. it's really exhausted working like hell for the day before it. i swear to myself that i won't stay on the 1st. but... i stayed... purposely...

for the sake of going back a little earlier today. i got to know today's the fire drill exercise day via a colleague - 99% accuracy rate. haha... knowing the future, i planned to clear up as much as i could so that i wouldn't be rushing like hell, as if the month end closing.

frustration fills me when i got to know how the team leader distributes cases to processors. whose list has the 'littlest' cases gets more cases. whatdaf**k??!!

reason being - 'the ones who have many cases in their lists sure cannot finish if i distribute equally among processors'.

result 1 - the ones clear cases faster will have more cases to do. result 2 - the ones who get to do more cases will have more cases to follow up. result 3 - overloaded.

consequence 1 - what happens to the ones who have more cases at the beginning? lesser cases to do, lesser cases to follow up. it is now their turn to get more cases. consequence 2 - by the time they being allocated with more cases, it is the time that the whole team gets flooded and overloaded cos it is reaching the month end closing. how many cases can the ones being allocated more? sounds bulls**t, huh??!

moral 1 - don't try to work more than required. moral 2 - don't try to be stupid, thought you'd be able to help the team to at least minimise the volume.

i'm sure that there are people out there who agree with me. but this isn't the healthy way of working. this isn't the way it suppose to be. i don't wanna work in this way, i don't wanna think in this way but i have to admit that it is this way. take it or leave it...

i finally understand why 8 colleagues of mine leave the company within 24 hrs. tender today, leaving tomorrow - bravo! i think almost 50% left the company, as if the company is closing down. scary... good luck, pals... my best wishes with you.

good luck to you, COMPANY...