silence is gold or ...?

hubby has gone for his basketball game.
m-i-l and s-i-l have left for ipoh to attend a wedding lunch.
b-i-l feels that it's boring staying at home so he went out.
f-i-l just came back and now heating up food for his dinner.
i've just finished shower and i have nothing to do.

total silence...

hubby managed to pick me up at 6.00pm this evening. but guess what... we were caught in a heavy traffic jam. we reached home at around 8.15pm. omg!! i couldn't believe this. not only hubby was tired, i was tired too, sitting in the car, doing nothing.

really nothing... we even hardly said a word to each other. perhaps both of us were tired... just simply too tired. there remained silent for about 15 minutes, 30 minutes or longer. i couldn't remember...

total silence...

lately, hubby comes back home late at night, almost every night. he has his work and basketball games to attend to. is he having too much things to do or i have nothing to do? i wished i could have so much activities to keep myself busy.

i'm now busy with housework - washing and folding clothes, sweeping the floor, washing dishes and so on... besides blogging and checking mails, i really have nothing to do. hubby actually asks me to look for my own social activities but i just couldn't find any and i'm not interested in anything right now, it seems. shopping? how many days in a week can i go shopping? sports? this new place is just too far for jogging (the only one that i'm interested in, at the moment : p)

i realise that the topics that could keep us talking to each other are getting lesser. yeah... we seldom talk nowadays. it's like... i'm married to his family more than him. really... i see and talk to m-i-l and s-i-l more than him. let me count... i think i see him less than 120 hours since we got married. surprised? yet it's true. i think i should register my amazing true story to ripley's believe it or not?! hahaha... kua jeong!!

the problem is... he does nothing wrong. he has his right to go for basketball games. this is his interest, i truly understand. he needs to work at night sometimes, i truly understand. but would it be better if he could... at least...? aah... i just don't wanna sound it out. he should've know what to do... and this is a problem too... he's kinda mm sing muk.

but when i need to say everything out... this is more like a command. i don't wanna demand for so much. putting things negatively - no demand and hope, there'll be more disappointment, right? if i were to ask for this and that... don't you think this will eventually lead to transforming him to the person that i wanted? he is not him anymore!! i don't wanna be a transformer, anyway. i just hate... erm... what's its name? bumblebee? yucks!!

weekend is coming and he'll be working... although i'll also need to work on saturday, how am i going to spend my sunday? with m-i-l and s-i-l AGAIN? oh no...