am i at fault, for not able to make my SIL of 21 years old, to bathe herself?am i at fault, to nicely say 'no' to a leftover set of sandwich that my MIL prepared for my SIL?
F**K @#$%^&*!!
...I love seeing the spectacular night view and make my wishes upon stars. May all my wishes come true...
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
RECENT UPDATES
it has been almost a month now from my last update - days are passing by so fast, without me realising it. it is now march 2010 - a quarter in a year and it has almost come to the end.
not much updates lately... most of the time i am working, attending sunday service and biblical studies, going back home in cheras, visiting kiat in sg long and that's about it.
i did not go on long leave during CNY. for me, as a KL-rian, spending CNY in KL is really boring. most probably only can go to shopping complexes, watch movies at cinemas or stay at home, watching TV and sleep. getting into sleep in the afternoon (or night), sometimes could be hard too - the weather is so hot and dry.
i was trying to upload a profile picture to my MSN this morning. then only i realised that i have very less photos to choose from. sigh... the most recent ones would be those taken during the bangkok trip in nov 2009. the image is so not updated - i have re-styled and dyed my hair, my acne problem has improved a little, i have put some kgs... hahaha... i think i need to snap some new photos.
recently hubby and i go for some home scouting and have found one in sg long - thanks to daryl and kiat for the recommendation. i think hubby likes it - simply because the unit is big enough for a home for 4, the area is still environmentally protected and quiet and the selling price is reasonable.
we have our fingers lingered on a calculator for 2 days and decided to go for it. we like the unit so much until we are willing to let go the distance and tolls.
i have been praying for a nice and affordable unit, not necessarily a big and luxurious one. i really thank God that He answered my prayers in only 3 days. i am starting to count on His blessings unto both of us and i rend everything in God's hand. i believe our willingness to obey His words and walk in His direction can lead us to our home sweet home, with blessings...
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not much updates lately... most of the time i am working, attending sunday service and biblical studies, going back home in cheras, visiting kiat in sg long and that's about it.
i did not go on long leave during CNY. for me, as a KL-rian, spending CNY in KL is really boring. most probably only can go to shopping complexes, watch movies at cinemas or stay at home, watching TV and sleep. getting into sleep in the afternoon (or night), sometimes could be hard too - the weather is so hot and dry.
i was trying to upload a profile picture to my MSN this morning. then only i realised that i have very less photos to choose from. sigh... the most recent ones would be those taken during the bangkok trip in nov 2009. the image is so not updated - i have re-styled and dyed my hair, my acne problem has improved a little, i have put some kgs... hahaha... i think i need to snap some new photos.
recently hubby and i go for some home scouting and have found one in sg long - thanks to daryl and kiat for the recommendation. i think hubby likes it - simply because the unit is big enough for a home for 4, the area is still environmentally protected and quiet and the selling price is reasonable.
we have our fingers lingered on a calculator for 2 days and decided to go for it. we like the unit so much until we are willing to let go the distance and tolls.
i have been praying for a nice and affordable unit, not necessarily a big and luxurious one. i really thank God that He answered my prayers in only 3 days. i am starting to count on His blessings unto both of us and i rend everything in God's hand. i believe our willingness to obey His words and walk in His direction can lead us to our home sweet home, with blessings...
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Thursday, February 11, 2010
IS IT MY DECISION? OR YOURS? OR OURS?
...answer to reveal after CNY...
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9th March 2010 - the decision is ours - we opt for a new home sweet home~~~
Monday, February 1, 2010
I'M DRAWING NEARER TO YOU
my MIL is starting to complain that i do not spend weekends at home.
normally i will go back to my parent's home in cheras during weekends, going back on friday / saturday, staying over for a night or two and get back home on sunday.
this is because of the sunday service that i long to attend every week. well... i really enjoy going to church, from worshiping, listening to God's words, having lunch with church mates to attending spiritual discipline class. i never found myself so committed in doing one thing in a regular manner and willingly doing it... God's power... : )
i have decided to confess to my MIL that i am attending sunday service and this is the main reason for me not staying at home during weekend.
actually i wanted to confess some time ago but i just had not got God's calling yet. the complains stayed on for some weeks and of course, i was in great pressure.
miracle happened last fortnight, it was a sunday, just when i got back home. i asked my SIL if my MIL asked about my whereabouts. she said no and asked why. once i told her the story, immediately i got God's calling for confession, through my SIL. in a way she assured me that i should just confess to my MIL, no big deal. going to church is not something bad, it is not against the law...
yeah, true... what is it that so hard to tell? what is it that so hard to confess?
my confession happened on a beautiful saturday morning. i told her that i would be most probably staying over at my parent's / sis' home during weekends from now on (silence). i told her that i am going for sunday service (silence).
is this the beginning... or is this the end... is this a 'phew' or a 't*u'...? OMG... *worry worry*
again and again, God sends His messenger to me - my hubby. he is so supportive and always comforting me that everything is gonna be okay. i suppose to show him God's mercy and grace in easing my burdens but in fact, he brings me God's message.
never underestimate God's power. He uses non-believers as reminders to me, that i should be directed to the right pathway, to know God and draw nearer to Him and grow deeper in Him.
Father, O'Lord. Thank you for the courage. You have answered my prayers. i am now pursuing myself to your fruitful pathway...
normally i will go back to my parent's home in cheras during weekends, going back on friday / saturday, staying over for a night or two and get back home on sunday.
this is because of the sunday service that i long to attend every week. well... i really enjoy going to church, from worshiping, listening to God's words, having lunch with church mates to attending spiritual discipline class. i never found myself so committed in doing one thing in a regular manner and willingly doing it... God's power... : )
i have decided to confess to my MIL that i am attending sunday service and this is the main reason for me not staying at home during weekend.
actually i wanted to confess some time ago but i just had not got God's calling yet. the complains stayed on for some weeks and of course, i was in great pressure.
miracle happened last fortnight, it was a sunday, just when i got back home. i asked my SIL if my MIL asked about my whereabouts. she said no and asked why. once i told her the story, immediately i got God's calling for confession, through my SIL. in a way she assured me that i should just confess to my MIL, no big deal. going to church is not something bad, it is not against the law...
yeah, true... what is it that so hard to tell? what is it that so hard to confess?
my confession happened on a beautiful saturday morning. i told her that i would be most probably staying over at my parent's / sis' home during weekends from now on (silence). i told her that i am going for sunday service (silence).
is this the beginning... or is this the end... is this a 'phew' or a 't*u'...? OMG... *worry worry*
again and again, God sends His messenger to me - my hubby. he is so supportive and always comforting me that everything is gonna be okay. i suppose to show him God's mercy and grace in easing my burdens but in fact, he brings me God's message.
never underestimate God's power. He uses non-believers as reminders to me, that i should be directed to the right pathway, to know God and draw nearer to Him and grow deeper in Him.
Father, O'Lord. Thank you for the courage. You have answered my prayers. i am now pursuing myself to your fruitful pathway...
Sunday, January 24, 2010
DO I LOVE GOD?
i'm very certain of the answer to the above question. but i'm not sure if i love Him in the way He wants me to. thanks God for His words through Pastor Looi this morning. when Pastor Looi asked us to stand up for Him, so shameful that i didn't. i wanted to rise up but something just held me back. i thought i wasn't ready...later in the afternoon, i attended the spiritual discipline class and again, thanks to sis seng kin for her sharing. it enlightened me so strongly that i'm now fully ascertained that i'm ready to surrender my all to Him and i'm ready to let Him enters my heart.
i think the biggest problem that pulls me back from my acknowledgement for God is my parents-in-law. they are the strongest buddhists in the world! i really can't imagine what would be their reactions if i confess to them.
God always reminds me to surrender my worries and let go my burdens on Him but i have been disobedient all this while. thanks God that i heard Him this afternoon - just love Him and nothing else. they will be no 'but / or / and / whatsoever that follows - just love Him!
not forgetting to thanks God for sending me a super understanding husband. he always being supportive in whatever i do for God - without questioning / disallowing / troubling me.
i'm ready for confession when God calls. i have no worries now. i can now pray, worship and praise the Lord with all of my heart.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
NO RESOLUTION FOR 2010
i can't imagine i have not visited and updated my blog for a month. i'm not gonna take 'year end closing' as an excuse anymore. it is just simply because i'm lazy - hahaha... the biggest confession in 2009!!
i went through this period of time quietly - trying to understand, analyze, study and 'feel' myself. i've been asking myself the same questions for the past few years - what do i want to do this year, what do i want to achieve this year - in short - resolutions!
i used to have dozens of resolutions but most of them are left undone, incomplete and unaccomplished. to avoid further disappointments, i've decided not to set resolutions this year. haha... i'm in the stage of withdrawal and denial - i got these words from the motivation talk that i attended last year.
better to have it said in this way - i want to have a more relaxing year ahead. it's hard to sing 'let it be', moreover i'm letting it be.
my this new 'let it be' attitude was actually inspired by a friend. she said this to me - who the hell are you to change the world? you believe in our tag line - you can make a difference? don't be so naive lah... how old are you oh...? just remember, do your very very best in whatever you are doing. if you get what you want, then good. if you don't, at least you have tried your best. what else do you feel you need to regret for?
it sounded negative but it could be a positive message too. i tend to complain before acting on a task, either existing or newly assigned. 'why do i need to do this? why not him to do this? why so troublesome? what is this for, nothing better to do?! why me? why me?? why me???!'
'why me...?' because it is my time to glow and show to myself what i got inside!
'why me...?' because this is a precious opportunity to know my value to myself.
'why me...?' simply because i'm a capable person that my boss remembers at once.
this isn't from any motivation talks, this is self experience. without an opportunity, no matter a good or a bad one, i can never show up myself. i'm gonna grab it hard and tight, work it out with passion and for sure i will get what i want.
all i need to do now is to be CONSISTENT, PERSISTENT, CONFIDENT & DISCIPLINED.
i'm all geared up and on my way to get what i want in life.
how about you?
i went through this period of time quietly - trying to understand, analyze, study and 'feel' myself. i've been asking myself the same questions for the past few years - what do i want to do this year, what do i want to achieve this year - in short - resolutions!
i used to have dozens of resolutions but most of them are left undone, incomplete and unaccomplished. to avoid further disappointments, i've decided not to set resolutions this year. haha... i'm in the stage of withdrawal and denial - i got these words from the motivation talk that i attended last year.
better to have it said in this way - i want to have a more relaxing year ahead. it's hard to sing 'let it be', moreover i'm letting it be.
my this new 'let it be' attitude was actually inspired by a friend. she said this to me - who the hell are you to change the world? you believe in our tag line - you can make a difference? don't be so naive lah... how old are you oh...? just remember, do your very very best in whatever you are doing. if you get what you want, then good. if you don't, at least you have tried your best. what else do you feel you need to regret for?
it sounded negative but it could be a positive message too. i tend to complain before acting on a task, either existing or newly assigned. 'why do i need to do this? why not him to do this? why so troublesome? what is this for, nothing better to do?! why me? why me?? why me???!'
'why me...?' because it is my time to glow and show to myself what i got inside!
'why me...?' because this is a precious opportunity to know my value to myself.
'why me...?' simply because i'm a capable person that my boss remembers at once.
this isn't from any motivation talks, this is self experience. without an opportunity, no matter a good or a bad one, i can never show up myself. i'm gonna grab it hard and tight, work it out with passion and for sure i will get what i want.
all i need to do now is to be CONSISTENT, PERSISTENT, CONFIDENT & DISCIPLINED.
i'm all geared up and on my way to get what i want in life.
how about you?
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