主你是我力量

it's a sunday morning and i suppose to be in bed still.  woke up at 900, got myself washed up and did some cleaning up in the kitchen.  without me noticing, i started humming a song, didn't know what a song it was.  after a while, i realised it was a worship song i heard it on a TV show that i watched yesterday.

i can't describe how amazing the moment when i realised i was singing a worship song in the early morning, the first thing in the morning.  i've never done this before and i never know it could be so so amazing and touching.  Praise the Lord!

logged in FB, tried to catch up the latest news and gossips, especially good news on newborn babies.  there're a lot lately but i never get enough of baby photos  *cute cute*

it wasn't a good news...  a friend was depressed over 'something', i always afraid of asking what is that 'something' that always bothers her.  i think it's not so nice to keep asking her about something that she wanted so much to let go.  everytime, i react passively over her similar posts and comments.

she's a devoted buddhist and i never talk about God and Jesus in front of her.  but this time, i dedicated 2 worship songs to her via FB.  i'm not trying to 傳福音, i've experienced emotional healing through worship songs, i just wanted her to feel safe and secure after listening to the songs.  i hope she'll feel the same that i felt, i hope she'll be healed as i've been healed.  Praise the Lord!

Dear Father,

Thank you for the enlightenment that You bring to me this morning.  Thank you for once again making me realise how beautiful it is to worship you, o'God.  It is amazing that You put all notes and lyrics in my mind, as I never sing a Chinese worship song without lyrics with me.  Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, o'God for the joy that You give me this morning, in fact, everyday!  Praise the Lord!

Lord, I want to ask for Your blessing to be upon my best friend - Loh Wai Yee, may You fill her heart with comfort, security and words of wisdom.  o'God, she is emotionally depressed, no matter what makes her depressed, o'God, please lay Your healing power upon her, o'God.  I pray, I pray, I pray, o'God, that You set her free from her prison, that You show her ways to the real happiness, that You bless herself and her family to go through the hard days in unity.

I pray, I pray, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.

Praise the Lord!







MY 1ST TIME @ COLUMBIA ASIA

after changing the appointment for the third time, finally the day for my gynae checkup has arrived.  my appointment time was set at 1500 but when it came to my turn, it was almost 1630 and the consultation took about 20 mins.

i'm quite comfortable with the doctor and i think i can entrust her to take care of me throughout my pregnancy.  she's a pretty straight-forward doctor, you could name it as commercial.  i think she's experienced enough and knows the best way to handle a first time patient like me, who is doing her the first prenatal checkup.

as expected, some questions on family history, abdominal scan, pap smear and prescription of folic acid were done.  the best thing was her acknowledgement that i'm ready to conceive.  all hubby and i need to do is relax, wait for the pre-ovulation (probably the 12th - 18th day from the last menstruation day) and do the 'activity' on an alternate day to increase the chance of getting the sperm to the ovum.

we've missed this month, gotta work harder the next month.  relax...  relax...

i'm planning for a daily dietary.  share with you once it's out.  before sharing the dietary, let me share with you the way columbia asia charges its patients.

first time patient:
registration: RM5.00 (for first time patient)
consultation: RM120.00
medical supplies: RM3.00 (equipment used for pap smear test)
laboratory: RM48.00 (pap smear test)
equipment charges: RM45.00 (scanner)
pharmacy: RM7.50 (folic acid 5mg x 30 tablets)
total bill: RM228.50

i think the bill should be quite standard for private hospitals.  mummies out there, is it?

ANGEL

i'm starting to explore into spanish songs.  this is my start of it, nice...  my angel is you.





IT'S A NEGATIVE

i've been feeling uncomfortable this lately, basically i've been experiencing symptoms of pregnancy.  after taking an online pregnancy test recommended by a friend, i think i should take a pregnancy test.

it's a negative when i took it this morning.  and i had a mixed feeling - i hope to be pregnant but at the same time i felt relief when it showed a negative result.  haiyo...  what is happening with me-leh?  can't understand...

try harder next month-lah...  努力する!!! 努力する!!! (努力!!! 努力!!!)

50KG

gosh...  i couldn't believe my own eyes when i saw the weighing scale pointed at 50kgs!!!  i am 50kgs now!!!  i used to maintain my weight in between 45kgs and 47 kgs.  what the hell happen to me???

i'm not eating disorderly.  i just sleep a little later than usual, lately...  erm... since i moved in my new home last october  (it's almost a year now, i didn't realise that...).  i don't have special cravings on fattening food, still the original me, i like green vegetables, fish balls and chicken wings!!!  this is not too much, well quite a balance diet, it is...  hahaha~~~

although i didn't mention that i exercise, doesn't mean i'm inactive, right...  i do house works and the calories burnt isn't too much different than exercise, i guess...  well, i hope it is so...  :ppp

gosh...  i need to do something about it.  let's see...  any suggestions, friends?