TOO LITTLE EFFORT

i remember that i wrote something about my job - that i left PRU. but i think i have omitted to write where i will be after that. well...

something to celebrate, i guess - that i have finally moved on, from my comfort zone of +/- 4 years to a familiar place yet a place that has gone through drastic changes in the past 1 year.

here i am now, back to the company i worked before PRU - Allianz Life. things have changed, some are staying bad as it was, some have turned better and some have gone worse. it's normal, i guess...

good to mention that i have a very accommodating boss who understands me at all times. current working environment is no longer like previous, full of coaching and learning culture and respect for others. erm... it's totally 100% the opposite way. everything is a big NO NO, not thinking a way to make things better. instead, to reject upfront and straightaway. the mentality is like 'no do, no wrong'.

requesting for IT support is the most difficult. the process is just like a desperate, hungry beggar begs for a piece of rotten bread! forever not committed, forever not productive, forever data not accurate! i just can't understand the difficulty to confirm when the request can be completed. to me, it's like a never ending wait, just like awaiting for a dead person to rise again - without knowing who the hell to create the chemical to rise the dead and when the hell the chemical can be invented. gosh... can you imagine that...???!!!

there's nothing i could do to change the bad situation and please don't tell me to at least try to change the culture by bringing over the good things that PRU practises. it's either i change myself to be as bad as the culture, let's see who is more nasty, the culture wins, for sure; or i quit!

i must at the same time blame myself for not being independent enough to handle my JDs and KPIs. too bad too sad to admit my stupidity for not able to know what the hell is happening from head to toe to the reports that i'm currently doing. the last person who did the reports told me that she was doing what the last last person told her to do without knowing the exact reason behind all the things that she did.

reminder to myself - switch on the positive ion charger, turn on the turbo engine, step on the petal and move on with power, fight to the level best!

正能量, 充满我吧!