I'M DRAWING NEARER TO YOU

my MIL is starting to complain that i do not spend weekends at home.

normally i will go back to my parent's home in cheras during weekends, going back on friday / saturday, staying over for a night or two and get back home on sunday.

this is because of the sunday service that i long to attend every week. well... i really enjoy going to church, from worshiping, listening to God's words, having lunch with church mates to attending spiritual discipline class. i never found myself so committed in doing one thing in a regular manner and willingly doing it... God's power... : )

i have decided to confess to my MIL that i am attending sunday service and this is the main reason for me not staying at home during weekend.

actually i wanted to confess some time ago but i just had not got God's calling yet. the complains stayed on for some weeks and of course, i was in great pressure.

miracle happened last fortnight, it was a sunday, just when i got back home. i asked my SIL if my MIL asked about my whereabouts. she said no and asked why. once i told her the story, immediately i got God's calling for confession, through my SIL. in a way she assured me that i should just confess to my MIL, no big deal. going to church is not something bad, it is not against the law...

yeah, true... what is it that so hard to tell? what is it that so hard to confess?

my confession happened on a beautiful saturday morning. i told her that i would be most probably staying over at my parent's / sis' home during weekends from now on (silence). i told her that i am going for sunday service (silence).

is this the beginning... or is this the end... is this a 'phew' or a 't*u'...? OMG... *worry worry*

again and again, God sends His messenger to me - my hubby. he is so supportive and always comforting me that everything is gonna be okay. i suppose to show him God's mercy and grace in easing my burdens but in fact, he brings me God's message.

never underestimate God's power. He uses non-believers as reminders to me, that i should be directed to the right pathway, to know God and draw nearer to Him and grow deeper in Him.

Father, O'Lord. Thank you for the courage. You have answered my prayers. i am now pursuing myself to your fruitful pathway...