what goes around comes around

this cny will be a special one - the first year celebrating it with my in-laws and the first year getting a long cny break. never have thought to take long holidays during cny as it is always a boring festival to me. other than sitting at home, waiting for relatives and friends to come for visiting, eating, sleeping, watching tv, receiving angpows and going out for visiting, it means nothing to me. although it is quite a lot already, the real meaning behind the festival is not really there. our family reunions almost every night, although not for dinners. we seldom go back to teluk intan and so do the people who stay there, they seldom come to kl too. isn't it just like an ordinary day?

on the first day of holiday, i woke up a little later than usual. did laundering and had my breakfast and i called it a day. mum-in-law had gone out after my breakfast, came back for a while in the afternoon and went out again for cny shopping.
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dengue fever got her admitted for 3 days and she had to catch up with her last minute cny shopping and she really bought a lot!!
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bored of watching tv for hours, i tried some readings. having nothing except the daily chinese newspaper, i remembered that i actually bought myself an asia reader's digest. reading really fun!! especially when the day is superb boring. i got to know the benefits of yakult and had enjoyed every single article and laughed over every single joke.
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hm... what's next? haa... i also bought myself a taiwanese magazine, a women's magazine, some time ago. there... i read through an article about a broken hearted woman, writing her experience of sharing her husband with another woman.
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it happened somewhere back in 2001, if i'm not mistaken. This lady A worked in the same company as her husband's. they went to work and went back home together in a car, everyday. everyone was so envy them as they were financially well-to-do, matching and the best part was - they were so... loving.
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this lady B, who newly joined the company, got to know her husband, gentleman C. in a short period of time, they got along well and went out for lunch together (of course, without lady A). tried not to be over sensitive, lady A didn't question gentleman C any further. yeah... she trusted him.
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the situation got a little serious when gentleman C would rather drove out from home earlier just to go to work with lady B and guess what... lady A had to go to work by lrts. it got a little more serious when gentleman C actually stopped his sport car in front of the office building just to fetch lady B. thousand pairs of eyes were watching them and wasn't this a shame to lady A? wasn't this an announcement that they were having an affair?
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the most serious thing was this gentleman C bought lady B a trip, took all the beautiful photos that they had taken and showed them to the colleagues, elaborating how wonderful the place was and how happily they enjoyed the trip. i just can't imagine how this lady A acted like an ostrich, hid her head in the sand.
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lady A had lost her patience and tried to talk things over with gentleman C. and of course, it was a failure. couldn't let things turned worse, lady A tried making things out with lady B. and of course, it was a failure too.
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the situation just got worse when it went to the management whereby the managers did the talking to both lady B and gentleman C. their answers were so matched - this is our personal matter and there is no any reasons this should be handled by the management.
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looked like nothing and no one could stop them for being so high profile in having an affair, lady A decided to resign. on her last day of work, lady B purposely went to gentleman C's workstation, held his hands and walked out for lunch - yeah, in front of lady A. believe it or not, lady B wanted to announce her victory.
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lady A couldn't bear with her anger anymore and sms-ed lady B and wrote something stupid. she didn't realise that until she read the sms-es after that. her emotions took over her and led her to sms lady B, asked why lady B treated her like that. lady B actually replied her sms, denied that she snatched her husband away. instead, thanking lady A for not being able to look after gentleman C and let him turned to her. oh gosh... can u imagine that? words from a bitch!!
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lady A was so broken hearted but she didn't file for a divorce as she still thinks that gentleman C, eventually would be sorry with what he had done and went back to her.
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not later after that, gentleman C broke up with lady B and patched back with lady A and she accepted him back into her live. i really salute u, lady A!! for your level of tolerance, generosity, and strength and strong believe. u really believe in impossibilities, man!!
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i guess things were getting better till... gentleman C is having another affair with another woman, in the same company.
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gentleman C is still with the old company and lady D is always with the company. this lady D is actually one of those who criticised badly the last affair, pin-pointed how jerky gentleman C was, how bitchy lady B was. and now, she's the one who being criticised and pin-pointed how bitchy she could be.
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pisang really berbuah dua kali. nothing could cure this gentleman C - mou yeok ho gau.
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lady A is once again broken hearted but this round, she is smarter. she files for a divorce. again, i salute u, lady A!! for your courage to at least stand up for yourself, for your bravery!!
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at the same time, lady A got some kepohchi hot gossips about lady B from her friends who still work in the company. she had several relationships in between and just broke off and started a new relationship.
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the last relationship had made lady B helpless, when gentleman E was in a dilemma whether to stay on with her or turn to lady F. didn't know much the story behind it but just got to know that gentleman E has made up his mind, to be with lady F.
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both gentleman E and lady F have suffered a while, when everyone couldn't accept the fact that they are together. this is normal, i guess as things move a little too fast at the wrong time. everyone sided lady B and pity for her.
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and guess what... lady B actually sent lady F sms-es, something like the ones that lady A sent to her last time, asked her why she treated her like that and snatch gentleman E from her. lady B is still in a better place as lady F didn't reply her nasty sms-es as she did to lady A.
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and guess what... a bitch is still a bitch!! no matter how broken hearted she is with the relationship with gentleman E, she started a relationship with another guy some weeks after the breakup.
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personally, i don't think lady B is heart broken at all, in any ways. unless she is looking for a pengganti of gentleman E, or she can't live without a man in her life... if not, i don't think she could be into a new relationship in just a blink. oh... maybe she is broken hearted as the new guy is not as rich as gentleman E.
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i really believe in what goes around comes around. balasan, kata orang tua...
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a special song dedicated to lady B...
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hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
you know i gave you the world
you had me in the palm of your hand
so why your love went away
i just can't seem to understand
thought it was me and you babe
me and you until the end
but i guess i was wrong
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don't want to think about it
don't want to talk about it
i'm just so sick about it
can't believe it's ending this way
just so confused about it
feeling the blues about it
i just can't do without ya
tell me is this fair?
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is this the way it's really going down?
is this how we say goodbye?
should've known better when you came around
that you were gonna make me cry
it's breaking my heart to watch you run around'
cause i know that you're living a lie
that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
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what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
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now girl, i remember everything that you claimed
you said that you were moving on now
and maybe i should do the same
funny thing about that is
i was ready to give you my name
thought it was me and you, babe
and now, it's all just a shame
and i guess i was wrong
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don't want to think about it
don't want to talk about it
i'm just so sick about it
can't believe it's ending this way
just so confused about it
feeling the blues about it
i just can't do without ya
can you tell me is this fair?
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is this the way things are going down?
is this how we say goodbye?
should've known better when you came around
that you were going to make me cry
now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'cause i know that you're living a lie
that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
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what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
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what goes around comes around
what goes around comes around
you should know that
what goes around comes around
what goes around comes around
you should know that
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don't want to think about it
don't want to talk about it
i'm just so sick about it
can't believe it's ending this way
just so confused about it
feeling the blues about it
i just can't do without ya
tell me is this fair?
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is this the way things are going down?
is this how we say goodbye?
should've known better when you came around
that you were going to make me cry
now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around'
cause i know that you're living a lie
but that's okay baby
'cause in time you will find
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what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
what goes around, goes around, goes around comes all the way back around
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let me paint this picture for you, baby
you spend your nights alone
and he never comes home
and every time you call him
all you get's a busy tone
i heard you found out
that he's doing to you what you did to me
ain't that the way it goes
you cheated girl
my heart bleeds girl
so it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
just a classic case
a scenario
tale as old as time
girl you got what you deserved
and now you want somebody
to cure the lonely nights
you wish you had somebody
that could come and make it right
but girl i ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
you'll see
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i thought i told ya
i thought i told ya
i thought i told ya
i thought i told ya
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see?
should've listened to me
what goes around comes back around
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what goes around comes around by justin timberlake

argh... i've missed the new year post!!

01.01.2009 00:00:00:000 was a fantastic moment - with citrix as my matching companion, workstation as my vogue-st partner, monitor, mouse and keyboard as my honourable guests, served with the world's best cocktail - plain water, partied in the most exclusive venue - the office and spectated from far the most amazing fireworks in town - klcc. what else better could i wish for a new year celebration? i have never expected my 2009 to touch down in such a wonderful arrangement. praise the lord~ hallelujah!

dear god, with all my heart, i'm asking for forgiveness for all the sins that i've committed. i did not do as what i've promised you, when you helped me through the way all this while. i'm asking for your kindness to give me another chance to keep my promise, to be truthfully myself when i'm with you. i will once again hold the cross and bible in my hands as i am always being taught and made to believe that they are my lifetime guard and savour.

god, thank you for giving me a chance to believe in you, to accept you as my lifetime savour, to talk to you and to build a relationship with you. you are now so close to me, as if i could feel and touch you. thank you for the wonders that you have given me, impossibilities that turned into reality that you have proven to me, again and again, whenever i doubt your existence.

god, thank you for sending me the man who i so deeply in love with, who cares and loves me as much as i do. thank you for leading and guiding me through all the good and bad times all this while. thank you for still believing in me and keeping me with you, no matter how sinful i am.

god, i pray to you, with all my heart, that you will give me the greatest strength to go through all the good and bad times in 2009. this year is definitely gonna be a challenging year for me and i believe the challenges are to again and again, to prove to myself that i can do it. yes, i can do it... with you by my side.

you have changed me from a lazy person to a motivated one, from a smoker to a healthy person, from a selfish person to a considerate one, from a hot tempered person to a rational minded one. i can't change without you watching me, without your encouragement and without your love.

2009 will be a new beginning to everything and a better relationship between you and i. god, i do also pray hard for world peace and may all stay healthy, wealthy and happily.

in jesus name i pray, amen.

it's time to conclude my 2008

haven't realised that time actually passed so fast, unexpectedly. 2008 has almost come to the end...

i was flipping over my 2008 scheduler and noticed that i've actually set some targets. they were 4 of them... and guess what?? i've achieved 2 1/2 out of 4...

1. $$ for my japan shopping trip : )
2. more water & down on caffeine
3. quit smoking
4. digicam & laptop

haven't not saved enough money for my japan shopping trip and decided to give up. but... please wait for me, tokyo... you are always on my mind : )

i used to slurp 2 cups of coffee and 1.5 litres of water per day. i then realised that the coffee consumption was like a little too much and the water consumption was a little too little. i kept on reminding and limiting myself to only take 1 cup of coffee and 2 litres of water per day. hmm... succeeded!! i'm feeling a little healthier after that :p

the biggest achievement of all is... i've successfully quit smoking!! the whole process was a s**t and it was so torturing. smoking is really a tempting habit, just like my shopping habit!! the call to smoke is just like devils' whispers, non-stop seduction. self determination and strong will are the keys to success. and of course, with god's help, i've finally beat the devils' calls!!

hubby has just bought me a digicam and i'm waiting for my laptop!! it's has become his target and not mine anymore. hahaha... pity him :p **just say say only lah**

2009 is just around the corner and it will be a more challenging year - economic slow down, lesser opportunity to my change job, extra workload, more spending lower savings... more and more coming up.

pray hard, believe in god and hope for a blessed 2009...

long time no see... when will i see you again?

a day before christmas eve makes me remembered your call back to malaysia. the happiness within me is so still, i can still feel it till now. thanks for the warmth greetings and the sweet voice of yours presenting the song that i wanted to hear the most. it is so touching... and i wanna let you know how grateful i am to god that i once had you in my life. i miss you so much... especially, whenever i feel down. i know you will always be there for me...

since then, i always wanted to find a song that best describe our relationship. i have finally found two but is it too late?

在东京铁塔　第一次眺望
看灯火模仿　坠落的星光
我终於到达　但却更悲伤
一个人完成　我们的梦想

你总说　时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天　就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上　张扬过哀伤
那是种多么　寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙　让我去流浪
在原地等我　把自己捆绑

你没说　你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动　自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着　你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰　你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

会呼吸的痛 by fish leong


这一刻突然觉得好熟悉 像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你 不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你 爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气 但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变 却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远 仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心 我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景 多希望也有星光的投影

努力为你改变 却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远 仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

可惜不是你 by fish leong

grandmother story

i just can't believe it!! can't believe it!!

a 50 year old lady could be so childish!! could be so superstitious!! could be so unreasonable!!

it has been almost a decade... **let me make it more kua jeong** it has been centuries since i last heard of this and i've actually forgotten the existence of the 'myth'. can you imagine how long is the long that people don't say this anymore?

who says it is not allowed to cut nails at night?

i was cutting my nails in the living hall while watching tv. of course i know the rules of cutting nails tidily... i siap-siap prepared a wastebin in front of me. who knows... m-i-l waited for me to finish cutting my nails and sounded me with the most annoying facial expression **i hate her facial expression - as if i've killed her whole family. i know she doesn't mean it, this is her but i just hate it!!!**

she said it is not allowed to cut nails in the house and the most importantly at night. if she said i can't do in the living hall or... okay... in the house, i can still accept it, for the sake of cleanliness. fine!!

**i think she doesn't know that the world has actually invented a nail clipper with catcher. just imagine doing it outside the house, under 30++ c/degrees, from cut, file, buffer and top coat, it takes about 1 hour. i feel sick when i think of it...**

i can't do it at night? wtf!!! i really wanted to ask her the reason behind this unreasonable command and if i need to yin har toong sing to find a good time to cut my nails. this is ridiculous, man!!!

i remember my mum told me the same thing too when i was a kids, not older than 10 years old, i'm sure, and i did ask her the reason not to cut nails at night. the only reason is... every mummy worries about her children. last time people used gasoline lamp ma, couldn't see clearly at night and afraid that her children cut their fingers or hurt themselves.

c'mon lah... nowadays people can see clearly under neon lights and i'm now 27 years old. if i cut my nails at night or i hurt myself... this is called careless, dei sei!! not because of 'whatsoever thing' that causes the huit gong ji joi... haiyo... please stop the nonsense!!

what a modern mum... uwek!!

month of december - month of celebrations

a new month - a new beginning - the same serm ching - excited to welcome the month of december, christmas, the year end, the new year celebrations and more and more shopping 'appointments'...

a brand new day, without mummy ki in da'house. happy to see you finally step out from this office and move on with your desired career path. wish you all the best working with a group of aunties, keep up the learning attitude and erm... all the best lah in everything you do. looking forward for more desperate housewives outings. kakaka...

the last day of november was my housekeeping day. woke up at 8.30am, did a nice facial mask, tidied the bed to its nicest, swept and mopped the floor, washed and hanged clothes. i thought of washing my car but after doing all the tasks, it was time to have a nice breakfast with che wei.

he was back from sg for the weekend and so good of him, he called me up for a meeting. he actually wanna pass me the wedding gifts... erm... cum christmas gifts. hahaha... they were caps and hats. both were special and i don't see them in m'sia. thanks, che wei...

back home and continued with the housekeeping. so sern kei that i ironed clothes - it was my first time. hopefully hubby doesn't realise how crumple his shirts are. hahaha...

cooked an instant noodle and poured a cup of coffee for lunch. burppp... *full*

they were back home at around 5.00pm and suggested to go for a buffet dinner at sun & surf @ sunway pyramid hotel. i thought we were going for shopping since s-i-l was so desperate for it. surprisingly, m-i-l was also saying that she wanted to go shopping too. i took a quick shower and got prepared for the outing.

just didn't know why we needed to wait for the arrival of a relative. she was going with us and she wasn't sure of the route. she even forced m-i-l to drive her car with us squeezing at the back. haiya... we were like sardines at the back and yet she said her car is spacious enough for us. sigh...

we reached there at around 7.30pm and... we still needed to wait for the relatives' friends. while waiting, we walked around the hotel area and we were so amazed by its' christmas decor and the environment in a whole. i couldn't find words to describe how beautiful it was but i'll try to put up the photos asap - my normal outings.

we started our buffet dinner at 8.00pm and finished at 8.45pm. by the duration of our dinner, i guess you'll know how 'delicious' the buffet dinner was. RM78++ is not worthy at all!! and the most kik sei thing was - it made us delayed our shopping plan. lagi not worthy!!

immediately we planned for another shopping day on this coming sat @ mid valley and the gardens. we were so proud of ourselves for being so efficient and effective. hahaha...

so many things to shop for. gotta make a shopping list. hehehe...

~~another mad shopping day~~

got a call from beng beng this morning, informing that vee vee is on her way back to kl. yeah... can't wait to see her tonight!!

and 1 surprise from beng beng... she asked me out for shopping at the i-setan. she seldom ask me to go shopping with her. memandangkan impian tak kesampaian yesterday, of course i said yes. i even asked kiat kiat to join us. aiya... me always a devil, asking people to spend money. hehehe... :pp

told hubby that i'll be going shopping after work. biasalah... he won't say cannot and he cannot say so too :p he said he'd sponsor me wo... let's see the items in my shopping list. hmm... i have **counting** erm... *still counting** haa... *almost forget this** aiya... too many, i've lost count!!

honey, please get your wallet ready for the bills :p

a ... beneath the crest of a hill

one last thing mummy ki teaches me before she leaves this office permanently - how to access blogspot from office!! ta-dah... here i am...

**this aunty memang banyak loong lou...**
**thanks to you, mummy ki and ling nee... for providing us the proxy address. i'm wondering how long we can do it. kakaka... me, si mulut celupar!!**

i wanted to go for FJ benjamin warehouse sales at the parkroyal hotel - hsbc credit card holder will get an additional 10% discount. sounds and looks attractive... luckily wendy called and advised me not to go. nothing much there, it seemed. okay... purse selamat!!

BUT...

i'm leaving real soon to head for the biggest, craziest shopping day at the i-setan. wahahaha~~~

mummy ki no longer wears smart casual to work. so she gotta shop for formal attires. i'm just accompanying. chehwa... as if i'm not gonna shop for myself. erm... hopefully not me buying things in the end. kekeke...

gtg now... let me show you my 'jin lei bern' when i reach home at night :pp


**just reached home**

haiya... wrong number!! these women thought that we were heading to pavillion and i thought that we were heading to i-setan. aiyaya... no merk kei... :p

at last we went to pavillion - partially because of the heavy traffic jam towards the klcc area. never mind... who ever cared for the place, anyway. so long there are boutiques for shopping and places for dinner. hehehe...

the christmas decor is a bit weird for the classy pavillion. white christmas - not considered white. gold christmas - not considered gold. i'm not sure of the overall concept. it looks just like the worldwide financial status - miserable. kakaka... :p

just managed to shop a little. had only bought a cardigan from forever 21. thought of buying christmas gifts for my buddies... sigh... tak berjaya. too luxurious and expensive, can't afford to pay :p

dined at dainti hill restaurant. the food wasn't as good as the last i went but the service quality has actually improves. the waiter asked if there a problem with the food as nee nee only touched 1/4 of it, i guess. nowadays, most of the restaurant don't do this, unless those that serve fine dining.

our first desparate housewives' gathering was great. we shopped, we dined, we chatted, we laughed and we shared funny and kik hei experiences with our in-laws. gossip lah tu... kakaka :p

better go to bed now as tomorrow i need to work full day.
what to do tomorrow leh...?