it's time to conclude my 2008

haven't realised that time actually passed so fast, unexpectedly. 2008 has almost come to the end...

i was flipping over my 2008 scheduler and noticed that i've actually set some targets. they were 4 of them... and guess what?? i've achieved 2 1/2 out of 4...

1. $$ for my japan shopping trip : )
2. more water & down on caffeine
3. quit smoking
4. digicam & laptop

haven't not saved enough money for my japan shopping trip and decided to give up. but... please wait for me, tokyo... you are always on my mind : )

i used to slurp 2 cups of coffee and 1.5 litres of water per day. i then realised that the coffee consumption was like a little too much and the water consumption was a little too little. i kept on reminding and limiting myself to only take 1 cup of coffee and 2 litres of water per day. hmm... succeeded!! i'm feeling a little healthier after that :p

the biggest achievement of all is... i've successfully quit smoking!! the whole process was a s**t and it was so torturing. smoking is really a tempting habit, just like my shopping habit!! the call to smoke is just like devils' whispers, non-stop seduction. self determination and strong will are the keys to success. and of course, with god's help, i've finally beat the devils' calls!!

hubby has just bought me a digicam and i'm waiting for my laptop!! it's has become his target and not mine anymore. hahaha... pity him :p **just say say only lah**

2009 is just around the corner and it will be a more challenging year - economic slow down, lesser opportunity to my change job, extra workload, more spending lower savings... more and more coming up.

pray hard, believe in god and hope for a blessed 2009...

long time no see... when will i see you again?

a day before christmas eve makes me remembered your call back to malaysia. the happiness within me is so still, i can still feel it till now. thanks for the warmth greetings and the sweet voice of yours presenting the song that i wanted to hear the most. it is so touching... and i wanna let you know how grateful i am to god that i once had you in my life. i miss you so much... especially, whenever i feel down. i know you will always be there for me...

since then, i always wanted to find a song that best describe our relationship. i have finally found two but is it too late?

在东京铁塔　第一次眺望
看灯火模仿　坠落的星光
我终於到达　但却更悲伤
一个人完成　我们的梦想

你总说　时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天　就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上　张扬过哀伤
那是种多么　寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙　让我去流浪
在原地等我　把自己捆绑

你没说　你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动　自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着　你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰　你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

会呼吸的痛 by fish leong


这一刻突然觉得好熟悉 像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你 不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你 爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气 但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变 却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远 仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心 我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景 多希望也有星光的投影

努力为你改变 却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远 仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

可惜不是你 by fish leong

grandmother story

i just can't believe it!! can't believe it!!

a 50 year old lady could be so childish!! could be so superstitious!! could be so unreasonable!!

it has been almost a decade... **let me make it more kua jeong** it has been centuries since i last heard of this and i've actually forgotten the existence of the 'myth'. can you imagine how long is the long that people don't say this anymore?

who says it is not allowed to cut nails at night?

i was cutting my nails in the living hall while watching tv. of course i know the rules of cutting nails tidily... i siap-siap prepared a wastebin in front of me. who knows... m-i-l waited for me to finish cutting my nails and sounded me with the most annoying facial expression **i hate her facial expression - as if i've killed her whole family. i know she doesn't mean it, this is her but i just hate it!!!**

she said it is not allowed to cut nails in the house and the most importantly at night. if she said i can't do in the living hall or... okay... in the house, i can still accept it, for the sake of cleanliness. fine!!

**i think she doesn't know that the world has actually invented a nail clipper with catcher. just imagine doing it outside the house, under 30++ c/degrees, from cut, file, buffer and top coat, it takes about 1 hour. i feel sick when i think of it...**

i can't do it at night? wtf!!! i really wanted to ask her the reason behind this unreasonable command and if i need to yin har toong sing to find a good time to cut my nails. this is ridiculous, man!!!

i remember my mum told me the same thing too when i was a kids, not older than 10 years old, i'm sure, and i did ask her the reason not to cut nails at night. the only reason is... every mummy worries about her children. last time people used gasoline lamp ma, couldn't see clearly at night and afraid that her children cut their fingers or hurt themselves.

c'mon lah... nowadays people can see clearly under neon lights and i'm now 27 years old. if i cut my nails at night or i hurt myself... this is called careless, dei sei!! not because of 'whatsoever thing' that causes the huit gong ji joi... haiyo... please stop the nonsense!!

what a modern mum... uwek!!

month of december - month of celebrations

a new month - a new beginning - the same serm ching - excited to welcome the month of december, christmas, the year end, the new year celebrations and more and more shopping 'appointments'...

a brand new day, without mummy ki in da'house. happy to see you finally step out from this office and move on with your desired career path. wish you all the best working with a group of aunties, keep up the learning attitude and erm... all the best lah in everything you do. looking forward for more desperate housewives outings. kakaka...

the last day of november was my housekeeping day. woke up at 8.30am, did a nice facial mask, tidied the bed to its nicest, swept and mopped the floor, washed and hanged clothes. i thought of washing my car but after doing all the tasks, it was time to have a nice breakfast with che wei.

he was back from sg for the weekend and so good of him, he called me up for a meeting. he actually wanna pass me the wedding gifts... erm... cum christmas gifts. hahaha... they were caps and hats. both were special and i don't see them in m'sia. thanks, che wei...

back home and continued with the housekeeping. so sern kei that i ironed clothes - it was my first time. hopefully hubby doesn't realise how crumple his shirts are. hahaha...

cooked an instant noodle and poured a cup of coffee for lunch. burppp... *full*

they were back home at around 5.00pm and suggested to go for a buffet dinner at sun & surf @ sunway pyramid hotel. i thought we were going for shopping since s-i-l was so desperate for it. surprisingly, m-i-l was also saying that she wanted to go shopping too. i took a quick shower and got prepared for the outing.

just didn't know why we needed to wait for the arrival of a relative. she was going with us and she wasn't sure of the route. she even forced m-i-l to drive her car with us squeezing at the back. haiya... we were like sardines at the back and yet she said her car is spacious enough for us. sigh...

we reached there at around 7.30pm and... we still needed to wait for the relatives' friends. while waiting, we walked around the hotel area and we were so amazed by its' christmas decor and the environment in a whole. i couldn't find words to describe how beautiful it was but i'll try to put up the photos asap - my normal outings.

we started our buffet dinner at 8.00pm and finished at 8.45pm. by the duration of our dinner, i guess you'll know how 'delicious' the buffet dinner was. RM78++ is not worthy at all!! and the most kik sei thing was - it made us delayed our shopping plan. lagi not worthy!!

immediately we planned for another shopping day on this coming sat @ mid valley and the gardens. we were so proud of ourselves for being so efficient and effective. hahaha...

so many things to shop for. gotta make a shopping list. hehehe...

~~another mad shopping day~~

got a call from beng beng this morning, informing that vee vee is on her way back to kl. yeah... can't wait to see her tonight!!

and 1 surprise from beng beng... she asked me out for shopping at the i-setan. she seldom ask me to go shopping with her. memandangkan impian tak kesampaian yesterday, of course i said yes. i even asked kiat kiat to join us. aiya... me always a devil, asking people to spend money. hehehe... :pp

told hubby that i'll be going shopping after work. biasalah... he won't say cannot and he cannot say so too :p he said he'd sponsor me wo... let's see the items in my shopping list. hmm... i have **counting** erm... *still counting** haa... *almost forget this** aiya... too many, i've lost count!!

honey, please get your wallet ready for the bills :p

a ... beneath the crest of a hill

one last thing mummy ki teaches me before she leaves this office permanently - how to access blogspot from office!! ta-dah... here i am...

**this aunty memang banyak loong lou...**
**thanks to you, mummy ki and ling nee... for providing us the proxy address. i'm wondering how long we can do it. kakaka... me, si mulut celupar!!**

i wanted to go for FJ benjamin warehouse sales at the parkroyal hotel - hsbc credit card holder will get an additional 10% discount. sounds and looks attractive... luckily wendy called and advised me not to go. nothing much there, it seemed. okay... purse selamat!!

BUT...

i'm leaving real soon to head for the biggest, craziest shopping day at the i-setan. wahahaha~~~

mummy ki no longer wears smart casual to work. so she gotta shop for formal attires. i'm just accompanying. chehwa... as if i'm not gonna shop for myself. erm... hopefully not me buying things in the end. kekeke...

gtg now... let me show you my 'jin lei bern' when i reach home at night :pp


**just reached home**

haiya... wrong number!! these women thought that we were heading to pavillion and i thought that we were heading to i-setan. aiyaya... no merk kei... :p

at last we went to pavillion - partially because of the heavy traffic jam towards the klcc area. never mind... who ever cared for the place, anyway. so long there are boutiques for shopping and places for dinner. hehehe...

the christmas decor is a bit weird for the classy pavillion. white christmas - not considered white. gold christmas - not considered gold. i'm not sure of the overall concept. it looks just like the worldwide financial status - miserable. kakaka... :p

just managed to shop a little. had only bought a cardigan from forever 21. thought of buying christmas gifts for my buddies... sigh... tak berjaya. too luxurious and expensive, can't afford to pay :p

dined at dainti hill restaurant. the food wasn't as good as the last i went but the service quality has actually improves. the waiter asked if there a problem with the food as nee nee only touched 1/4 of it, i guess. nowadays, most of the restaurant don't do this, unless those that serve fine dining.

our first desparate housewives' gathering was great. we shopped, we dined, we chatted, we laughed and we shared funny and kik hei experiences with our in-laws. gossip lah tu... kakaka :p

better go to bed now as tomorrow i need to work full day.
what to do tomorrow leh...?

silence is gold or ...?

hubby has gone for his basketball game.
m-i-l and s-i-l have left for ipoh to attend a wedding lunch.
b-i-l feels that it's boring staying at home so he went out.
f-i-l just came back and now heating up food for his dinner.
i've just finished shower and i have nothing to do.

total silence...

hubby managed to pick me up at 6.00pm this evening. but guess what... we were caught in a heavy traffic jam. we reached home at around 8.15pm. omg!! i couldn't believe this. not only hubby was tired, i was tired too, sitting in the car, doing nothing.

really nothing... we even hardly said a word to each other. perhaps both of us were tired... just simply too tired. there remained silent for about 15 minutes, 30 minutes or longer. i couldn't remember...

total silence...

lately, hubby comes back home late at night, almost every night. he has his work and basketball games to attend to. is he having too much things to do or i have nothing to do? i wished i could have so much activities to keep myself busy.

i'm now busy with housework - washing and folding clothes, sweeping the floor, washing dishes and so on... besides blogging and checking mails, i really have nothing to do. hubby actually asks me to look for my own social activities but i just couldn't find any and i'm not interested in anything right now, it seems. shopping? how many days in a week can i go shopping? sports? this new place is just too far for jogging (the only one that i'm interested in, at the moment : p)

i realise that the topics that could keep us talking to each other are getting lesser. yeah... we seldom talk nowadays. it's like... i'm married to his family more than him. really... i see and talk to m-i-l and s-i-l more than him. let me count... i think i see him less than 120 hours since we got married. surprised? yet it's true. i think i should register my amazing true story to ripley's believe it or not?! hahaha... kua jeong!!

the problem is... he does nothing wrong. he has his right to go for basketball games. this is his interest, i truly understand. he needs to work at night sometimes, i truly understand. but would it be better if he could... at least...? aah... i just don't wanna sound it out. he should've know what to do... and this is a problem too... he's kinda mm sing muk.

but when i need to say everything out... this is more like a command. i don't wanna demand for so much. putting things negatively - no demand and hope, there'll be more disappointment, right? if i were to ask for this and that... don't you think this will eventually lead to transforming him to the person that i wanted? he is not him anymore!! i don't wanna be a transformer, anyway. i just hate... erm... what's its name? bumblebee? yucks!!

weekend is coming and he'll be working... although i'll also need to work on saturday, how am i going to spend my sunday? with m-i-l and s-i-l AGAIN? oh no...

beauty chat all day long

finally i can feel the impact of the financial tsunami. have been overloaded since last september and suddenly the world stops where it is. everything moves a little slower than usual and eventually stops...

i was like waiting to go back home from work as early as 10.30am. since i had nothing to do and there was nothing to be done... tunggu apa lagi?? IM all day long with mummy ki.

'mummy ki, i know that you have nothing to do also, right? stop pretending that you are busy and let's chat with me...' hehehe...

**i'm the devil... yeah...**

mummy ki, finally... i found the old packaging of the green make up base that i've been using all this while. with the new and nicer packaging, the price is only up by rm5.00... worthy to buy-lah...

**i'm the devil... yeah...**

mummy ki, since i know your level of laziness to putting on fake eyelashes, i'd recommend you this set of fake eyelashes. the effect is almost the same with the enhancing eyelashes (the bit-by-bit eyelashes that i told you this morning). you can have a try...

wishing you all the best in choosing yourself the most suitable pair of fake eyelashes. remember to get the adhesive ya... remember to buy the applicator too. shu's applicator cost rm150.00 and please don't invest on it first. beat your semangat hangat-hangat tahi ayam before buying real expensive tools. erm.. buy a normal tweezers first.

i'm now scouting for a nice eyeliner. pencil-lah... i'm still a beginner in applying a eyeliner. i'm sure it's gonna be zigzag lines if i use liquid eyeliner. kakaka~~~

feel free to suggest me. thanks in advance...!!