我累了，我放弃了

天真的我以为两个人相处是需要互相体量。如对方做错了任何事都需要互相提醒然后包容地彼此原谅。原来互相提醒是一件很累的事情。怎么说呢，我累的是。。。我永远都是提醒的那个。重复地提醒着同一件事情，我真的很累了。

你总是说我想得太远，想得太多，想得太复杂。但是，你重来没了解我如何这样想。每次当我要发表我的不满时，你总是说我的表达能力有问题，我的字句不够体贴，不够温柔，我的语气很重，什么什么的。但我已经没力气去包装我的字句，已经不想去package我的presentation。无论我说得多好你也听不进去。就算我将这个问题画成一幅画，一幅很美丽的画，也没用。你看看就算了，根本不会上心。

就当我输了，我不想再玩这个提醒游戏。你喜欢的就可以了，我不想再争论是否你没替我着想或我想得太多。你要你的自由，我要我的宁静。

我讨厌这种感觉，所以我放弃了。我不想再浪费我的力气，所以我放弃了。我失望而不想盼望，所以我放弃了。

你越想补救，我越讨厌你。你越想为我做点补偿，我越想躲开你，甚至想离开你的视线，不要让你看到我，我也不想看到你。是，就是这样的难受。

我想这次我真的累了。

PLEASE LOVE OUR MOTHER'S NATURE. LET'S START FROM YOU & I, FROM THIS MOMENT ON...

Skies are crying, I am watching, Catching teardrops in my hands.

Only silence, as it's ending, Like we never had a chance.

Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have, You can break everything I am,

Like I'm made of glass, Like I'm made of paper.

Go on and try to tear me down. I will be rising from the ground,

Like a skyscraper, Like a skyscraper.

As the smoke clears, I awaken, And untangle you from me.

Would it make you feel better, To watch me, while I bleed?

All my windows still are broken, But I'm standing on my feet

You can take everything I have, You can break everything I am,

Like I'm made of glass, Like I'm made of paper.

Go on and try to tear me down. I will be rising from the ground,

Like a skyscraper, Like a skyscraper.

Go run, run, run. I'm gonna stay right here, Watch you disappear. Yeah, ohh.

Go run, run, run. Yeah, it's a long way down,

But I am closer to the clouds, Up here.

You can take everything I have, You can break everything I am,

Like I'm made of glass, Like I'm made of paper.

Ohhh... Go on and try to tear me down. I will be rising from the ground,

Like a skyscraper, Like a skyscraper.

Like a skyscraper, Like a skyscraper.

打开爱

看完整整52段林宥嘉的星光全记录之后,我还是最爱着一段. 虽然这场表演不是最高分的一场,虽然表演水平还不能胜过'你是我的眼',但... 感情铺排得很好,很感人,有一种直唱进心里的感觉.

我和燕姿的第一次邂逅 - 很好

收录在'爱情字典'这张专辑里,如果没记错,应该是第十首歌吧.

感觉很好,感情很丰富,声音很清晰.

很感动.

特别欣赏这句子，

'就算没有人看好,幸福是应为互相依靠'

已经，即将，准备，在努力中，计划着

no matter with mummy esther who is busy with her two lovely monkeys,

no matter with mummy-to-be beverly who is waiting for her anytime baby boy anxiously,

no matter with another mummy-to-be connie who is preparing for her baby boy in mid august,

no matter with ling nee who is trying to make a baby (babies),

and no matter with myself who is planning for a baby this year end,

ladies ladies sekalian, add oil add oil add oil (加油，加油，加油)!!!

so happy to see you gals this evening. thanks for the sharing on pregnancy and babies and tricks to handle monkeys. hahahahaha...

see you gals again when we go visit BB after her labour. i'm also waiting anxiously :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HUBBY HOE HOE

hope that you like the surprise birthday party. hubby, sorry for the lie that i kept for almost a month and sorry about the lee kum kee light soy sauce. hahaha...

happy birthday, hubby. stay healthy and handsome!!

WHENEVER YOU FEEL LIKE GIVING UP, PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS SONG. I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP TOO UNTIL I COME ACROSS THIS SONG...

撞進了冰山 捲上了急灣 一秒從未想折返

就望到了 就能望到了 終會踏足這峽灣

劃破了風衣 丟了救生衣 未曾想過會倖免

若生於某個 總擠不進我地點 註定遠征一遍

這發熱汗腺 也都乾透了 雙腿卻繼續狂放 在衝出那人浪

幾次被埋葬 窄巷中 復活過幾趟 留一口氣講

再失敗 至懂看透 那不甘 去為我來營救 向著太陽狂走

撞進了冰山 捲上了急灣 一秒從未想折返

就望到了 就能望到了 終會踏足這峽灣

劃破了風衣 丟了救生衣 未曾想過會倖免

逆光中進發 不甘安置到盲點

上路去再實踐 板塊移動了 亂世中絕地裡反抗 誰躲於暗光

直到失敗 至懂看透 讓那不甘 去為我來營救 向著太陽狂走

撞進了冰山 捲上了急灣 一秒從未想折返

就望到了 就能望到了 終會踏足這峽灣

劃破了風衣 丟了救生衣 成全這最美歷險

逆光中進發 不甘安置到盲點 上路去再實踐

撞碎了冰山 衝過了急灣 登上完夢的峽灣

望到了 望到了 白雲搭上一片藍

記載了凶險 傷勢也不淺 腳踏這裡這一天

歷史中結算 一心走出錯地點 幹下遠征一遍

令人陶醉的歌声

寂寞流星群 is a song made popular by Sandy Lin. Undeniable, Sandy Lin sings this song perfectly, no matter back then or current. I think Hin's version worth equally much attention as he sings this song perfectly too, in his way.

Guys... Enjoy the concert version!

COOKING DAY @ 10.07.2011

me in my new apron

stewed chicken with potato in soya sauce

fried 'sawi' in oyster sauce

ROUND 2 @ 11.07.2011

had my other 2 teeth extraction today. this time is more painful than the last time as the wounds are deeper. dr. said this could last for a week. 忍忍忍忍忍...

upper brace is scheduled on 13 august. the whole process takes about 2 hours, gosh... very tired with my mouth opened for 2 hours :ppp

BERSIH 2.0 大集会

There was a scheduled and planned peace walk for democracy (BERSIH Rally) on 9 July 2011, from 2pm to 4 pm, at numerous assembly spots and eventually united in Jalan Pudu. The main reasons for the BERSIH rally are:

1. Clean the electoral roll

2. Reform postal ballot

3. Use of indelible ink

4. Minimum 21 days campaign period

5. Free and fair access to media

6. Strengthen public institutions

7. Stop corruption

8. Stop dirty politics

Well, these are too complicated for me to understand and I don't have much interested to join the rally actually. Although I didn't join the rally, I did give all protesters my 100% attention, salutation and respect for their efforts to fight on behalf of the Rakyat, who think that they have been treated unfairly all the while. It is so undeniable that the rally was a great success, it brought the Rakyat together as one and united, no matter where they were (FYI, the rally was kicked off almost concurrently in Melbourne, NYC, London, HK, Singapore, Taiwan, Turkey and many more countries).

The most that I watched on YouTube besides the situation of the rally was the police force. Personally, I think they were no better than samseng who fight by the roadside! When they couldn't control the crowd, they chose to beat up the Rakyat! Is this what they learn in cadet school for crisis handling?

I just hate the police force! I still remember my very bad experience with the traffic police. The incident happened a few years back, during the riot for Anwar Ibrahim in front of the Hang Tuah Monorial Station. Protesters were in red, assembled to fight for justice for Anwar Ibrahim (I couldn't remember what happened to him. From the way I tell you my story, you can read that I am not into politics!).

So coincidence, Prudential Asia was having an event and staff were required to wear RED shirts (FYI, Red is Prudential!). After work, I was driving and heading to the monorail station to drop off my colleague. The truck in front me headed to the same direction and drove into Jalan Hang Tuah. Who would actually read the news before leaving office and who would then know there was a riot going on? Definitely, I was one of those who cared! I followed the truck in front of me and intended to go into Jalan Hang Tuah. The traffic police on duty stopped my car and started scolding at me. I didn't wind down the window and I couldn't hear a word from him. All I knew was he was scolding like hell at me! When I showed no reaction and intended to drive into the road (Hey, come on... I was already in the middle of the road, already more than half the way to reach the road, of course I would choose to continue going into it!), he kicked the back of my car and continued scolding! WTF???!!! Is this what a police should behave? When he couldn't control me, he chose a brutal way to show his power! His behaviour is nothing better than a samseng! Just because I was too scared to speak up and fight for my right as the Rakyat, I chose to be silent...

I don't think there is any improvements after all, I am still seeing the same way of handling the Rakyat when they can't control them. After so many years... they are still the same. My silence has made them think they are so empowered to do anything they like and they can't be challenged! I am so regretting my cowardliness...

Hidup Hidup, Hidup Rakyat! Thanks to Bersih, you made me awaken and encouraged me to stand up for my rights as the Rakyat!

just noticed that my writing is getting lesser compared to the years before.

why is it so? i think...

1. inspirations are exhausting as i have cut down on reading cecelia ahern.

2. reality is very much impacting my life in 2011.

3. more time spent on TV and housekeeping.

4. i am getting lazier.

5. i am making up more excuses.

*singing the smurf song*

blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah...

曾经也有这种感觉

恢恢的...

今天一起床感觉都是恢恢的, 心依然挂着那件事, 无法忘记.

天意弄人, 这句子, 真得很啊...

在等着要做一个好daddy的他, 已立誓要给太太永恒的幸福的他, 已承诺要建立一个温暖的家的他, 无助之下, 被逼放弃所有. 天啊... 你好残忍啊...

生命原本就是脆弱的, 要走的, 怎样也不能留. 我想我也需要时间来接受一切, 何况是他身边的最亲.

朋友们, 珍惜眼前人... 千万别留遗憾...